You know the type, the "what if I had done this instead of that?" "What if I had only had the courage to tell him that I loved him, all those years ago?" "What if I had just let go of the bad ones me trusted him?"
While I am happy for him, it's made me realize that I have spend half of my entire life trying to make it work with the wrong people by giving up pieces of me and have discovered that I have very little left of me left and that I am very unhappy with my life.
Thankfully, I have taken steps to change that.
I am registered for school again. This time with full support of my family and friends in a city that they can help me out if I need it.
I have been eating cleaner.
I've gotten on to waiting lists for family doctors.
I have made the choice to spent at least a few hours each week with friends.
I'm hoping for a better future.